well people i heard today they gonna pack the stuff and send it over to the new office but i dun seem to get any respond from my boss yet sadly to say. coz i duunno when to report at new office coz im very forgetful at times only ok.. coz he always inform me last min not very gd ok.. coz last min stuff = unsuccessful plan. haiz anyway i already apply for another job as aMSO at singapore police force. Wat's a MSO? erm.. Management support officer and wat do they do? u can ask muslihah coz she's a MSO hehehe.. bole eh mus ko tolong jawabkan since ko tahu kan ape job scope dier. why i wanna go to that job? 1st :stable (government job mah..) 2nd : benefits as a person who work under civil service u are entitled to benefits like healthcare and dental care plus other stuff. last but not least, i find that it is more challenging due to the fact that u r rank in grades.. and let say u're gd in ur job u can go for higher grades. something like that. well hope that i got the job.. maybe not for now but any other month would do or else i think i better think of another alternatives..

Ok lets forget abt the job topic.. i wonder is it true about what some people say abt strong people are more insecure.. maybe? i have no idea.. but to me i used to be strong.. not in sense of musclemen strong kinda thing.. but i was refering to strong hearted, brave nothing much to fear abt people ard me. Since young i was tought to defend people and helping them in sense of security. but now i realized i'm not as strong as before. I dunno why i lose that feeling and i need my dearest to protect me instead.. all of the sudden the feeling of insecure came over me.. insecure of losing precious people in life, insecure of the future outcome.. simply said insecure abt my own life. this feeling of insecurity can drive me nuts at times. sometimes i wish i was as strong and energetic as before but it is very hard for me.. well i guess i need to find it before this insecurity get the worst out of me.