i'm freaking pissed since a few days back.. wanna know wat happen?
*flash back*

*Sunday, 12th August 2007 *

morning - afternoon
slack in front of tv, playing PS2, doing sudoku..

Evening...
mum: Let's go IKEA!
me: wah, u got urself and dad ready then u tell us let's go? big bro still sleeping liao..
mum: ooo...k.. come let's go!
me: -__-" (does she get wat i say??)
* so ya bla bla bla we got ourselves ready and went to IKEA*

After IKEA, we went to have dinner at tampines nearby one of my aunt's place. This is wat pissed me off.. We bump into my uncle, the one who divorced wif my aunt who lives nearby to the place we had dinner.. he called me "girl" (i got a name ok... sheesh) that was not all.. he sat together at our table and talk.. So ya, he ask wat me and my big bro doing now.. this is wat make me freaking pissed..

uncle: gerl... what r u doing now? still studying uh? or working?
me: working..
uncle: as wat?
me: admin... small company...
uncle: ur diploma admin uh?
me: nope. Engineering..
uncle: gerl... what happen to u.. why diff line.. cannot like that u know
me: *pissed wif a fake smile*
me: I'm still looking ard for another job...
uncle: oh.. ok... must find under ur line u know... ok today must belanja uncle dinner..
me: ok *thinking* damn it u..

wahlau... say so much wat happen to me la this la that la.. eh u think easy to get a job is it. damn u uncle.. and still got the face sumore ask me to belanja him dinner. #%^%&%$#!!!

so ya the talking continues.. between him and my bro... it was so diff sia. i mean my bro is NS liao and u know wat he says? u make ur parents proud of u.. and he pat his shoulder WTH!! i work so hard im not making anyone proud ard here?? it is juz me or isit it is easier for guys to make their family proud.. not fair sia.. i struggle to earn help to pay all those necessary stuff and do i even get a thanks? haiz... I try not to be fussy wif job coz i know my dip isn't good, i dun have experience that much.. but seriously people like my uncle really makes me pissed. It really make me feel as if i am a disgrace, a useless child in the family.. All my life i try so hard to make people ard me proud of wat i do.. most of the time wat i got back is juz simply nothing.. ouh well im not gonna give up here.. I'm gonna still prove to them..