hey pple this few weeks had been a roller coaster ride for me.. haiz. first and foremost as u know i did 'nt wear my tudung for once the other day due to skin probs. but once it was ok i started wearing it again coz my dad ask me to wear bendena which definately i look weird in it. and for now i tot i could wear my tudung again but i was wrong i can't not because of my skin prob but it was because i start to have migrane and it was a terrible one. once i got it the ache was so terrible that i wish that i could bang my head against the wall.i also start puking out watever i eat. haiz.. i juz dunno wat's wrong wif me.. it is not juz that. my parent found out abt my bf.. and i was freaking afraid that he would beat me up. the other day i went home frm the hospital late i nearly got a slap. and now this.. yesterday i had a lecture from mum, dad and big bro. they think im a liar. they think all this time that i say i m going out wif my bff was a big lie. haiz.. i dunno wat to say to them seh... my dad doesn't want me to have commitment at this point of stage or in other words no strings attached.. im juz so sad to hear that juz imagine being together for 2mths and let it go and say let's be frenz don't u think it is gonna be painful??not juz for me but for him also.. we had a slow talk last nite thinking wat shud we do. that was the nite i heard him cry when i told him my dad doesn't want me to have commitment. even though his cries over the phone wasn't clear, but i can sense his sadness.my adik angkat , hannan was our middleman. we had a conference between the 3 of us. hannan told me wat hairul told him as he can talk for a moment. I told him straight to the point that i won't let hairul go watever happens.. then after hannan hang up we talked and he told me watever happens he is going to be wif me.. isk isk at that point of time on the other end i was in tears..